Chapter 1
And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.Jeremiah 29:13In a faraway kingdom named Willow Mist Isle, there lived a mesmerizing green fairy with iridescent wings of light. She wore a rich brown bouquet of ringlets around her face that cascaded down her back. The fairy folk dwelling on the emerald enchanted Isle called her Moon Dancing from the moment she was a wee babe and danced wildly under the moonbeams.This fairy frolicked with the butterflies smelling the sweet nectar in the marvelous floral blossoms. She played tag games with the dragonflies over glistening streams while squealing with delight. There were treasured times when she howled with Gray Wolf and soared with Red Hawk, her two closest creature companions.
The King and Queen Fairy in her kingdom had a personal and profound effect on her choices in life. She loved them so much that she did everything possible to please them. Moon Dancing was devastated when the tender-hearted King Fairy suffered through an incurable illness and made his transition to the Supreme Isle in the Sky. Based on her spiritual studies, she knew in her heart that she had to let him go.Under the full moon after his death, the King started to visit Moon Dancing in dreamland. In the first several dreams, she saw him through a doorway to the other world in a weakened energy state. The little one quickly realized that her beloved King was reaching out to be her teacher from the Spiritual World.Two full moons later, Moon Dancing dreamed that the King had walked through a passageway. She saw herself run to him and throw her arms around him for a heart hug. He looked healthy again and she could feel the strength in his spiritual energy body.“I love you,” called out Moon Dancing to the King Fairy in her dream.Upon awakening, she understood the King’s first message to her was that there is rebirth and healing after physical death. Moon Dancing’s philosophy in the Physical World was always to try to live life fully. One of her preferred places in fairyland to have fun was at Crystal Falls. The musical multi-leveled waterfalls were surrounded by tall aromatic pines and moss covered coves. Beside the beautoful misty falls, the fairy enjoyed dancing under the moonlight. The silvery stream of moonbeams and the flashing of fireflies often illuminated the night sky.On the moonrise, Moon Dancing called for Gray Wolf and Red Hawk to join her at Crystal Falls. The sounds of the tiny tree frogs and the katydids set the rhythm for her to dance the night away.
The fairy’s wings appeared to change colors as she whirled and twirled in the shadows of the night.The wolf led them in joyful howls while the hawk flapped his wings to the beckoning beat. Their harmonizing sound and energy echoed in the nightly ceremony.As the shining stars danced across the sky, Moon Dancing finally collapsed from exhaustion. She had released her tangled emotions through her energetic body movement to the melodies in the night.The fairy and her companions curled up in one of the welcoming coves. She snuggled close to Gray Wolf’s fur and Red Hawk’s feathers as she felt their warmth and security.The wild-spirited wolf and red-tailed hawk were her two loyal confidants. Both were always there to support her. They admired her kind and gentle nature. Due to her sensitive spirit, they were aware that the fairy had often been wounded by others in the kingdom. Those that wielded their personal power found her easy prey.The heaviest heartache Moon Dancing ever experienced had come from the one called Caden. The budding season of their romance brought endless laughter and happiness to the both of them. He vowed his love for her to the ends of the earth for many many moons. They frequently finished each other’s thoughts with their intimate energy connection. Life was pure pleasure at the onset of their passionate love affair.
Gradually, the adoring love was endangered by an abuse of power. Caden embodied a strong character that demanded he be heard. He had no concept of accountability when expressing himself. She, on the other hand, had not developed the skill to say no to unacceptable choices. The more she chose the silent treatment during their conflicts, the greater they grew. As the partnership regressed, he instilled a deep fear in Moon Dancing during their dysfunctional attempts to communicate.In the name of love, the starry-eyed fairy unknowingly relinquished her power to Caden over and over by accepting his repetitive demeaning choices. It was the incessant name calling that numbed her. In those exchanges, the fragile fairy was not aware that her passive choices were just as damaging to her as his aggressive performances. Sadly, she stored the pain and fear in her heart to hide the anger and helplessness.Moon Dancing thought her feminine choices of compassion and love would change him; but regrettably, Caden was unaware that his ruthless words were taking a toll on her heart. The little one was no longer able to express herself effectively. The harsh reality was that she had allowed others to hurt her and by not making conscious choices, the fairy was unconsciously making choices. In her silent screams, she did not understand that she had practiced self-betrayal for most of her existence.In dreamland, the little one received another message from the King Fairy. He was standing beside the fairy in the dreamscape as she heard herself say, “I cannot do it. I am powerless.”
Under the moonlight, Moon Dancing flew down to the pool beneath the falls to freshen her face. When she leaned over the darkened water, her reflection shocked her. Although the rest of her body was visible, she did not see her face reflect from thepool. She had truly lost her own identity. Pondering the King’s dream and her faceless reflection, Moon Dancing began to question her life and sense of fulfillment.“There must be more to this gift of life! Just being lovable little me is not working.”Moon Dancing’s thoughts turned to other dreams that often showed both beautiful and beastly masks. Those dreams revealed the smiles, which she masqueraded for the survival of her perfect self-image. The fairy mentally flashed back on her gnome friend, Pig. He had proven to be a fun-loving friend that supported her spiritual seeking. Together, they had set out on a path within their kingdom for higher learning and healing. They had so much fun as they hunted for ways to live a healthier life.Moon Dancing confided to Pig about her fear of expressing herself as the two learned many spiritual concepts together. Soon thereafter, they were presented with a test on their alliance.The budding fairy was faced with a decision to move farther away from Pig’s residence but closer to Caden’s dwelling. Knowing Moon Dancing and Caden had some long-lasting love issues, Pig jumped up and down when he was told about the anticipated move. He got downright rude when the fairy made her choice to move without his approval and he immediately severed the ties of their friendship.“Why,” questioned Moon Dancing, “is communication so difficult for me?”
The communication breakdown turned into another agonizing heartache. Moon Dancing’s perception had been changing. The fairy was trying to make better choices for herself but had a hard time making the transition. In the end, her once- friend expertly used the knowledge of her communication weakness against her. Hence, the best choice for her was to let him go.Shifting her sleepy brown eyes over to the melodic falls, Moon Dancing was taken aback. She counted three… six…no…nine golden balls of light in vertical sets of three as they manifested before her eyes. They appeared right to left in the air with each set gradually increasing in size. Astounded at the supernatural sight, the fairy cried aloud, “What is happening here? I am an earthly being having a spiritual experience. How can these nine golden balls of lights be explained?”Moon Dancing decided it was time to unveil this mystery of life. In order to expand her awareness, she must make her first journey outside the kingdom of Willow Mist Isle.“I have to get beyond my need for approval to attain a sense of well-being. It is my divine calling to discover my own happiness and true identity.”
While staring into the waters of the reflection pool, Moon Dancing resolved that she would travel three sunrises and three moonsets in each of the four cardinal directions. She would seek a unique experience at each destination in order to unravel the secrets in her life. The excited fairy felt an explanation of the nine golden balls and the meaning of her life would be revealed. Her eagerness grew as she felt the morning mist kiss her face. She decided to tell her comrades of her plan upon their awakening. As sunup crept closer, Moon Dancing grew impatient to share her vision. She flew up to the cove to awaken Gray Wolf and Red Hawk.“The time is now. I must seek knowledge outside of our kingdom to better understand my spirituality and me. I will leave on my spiritual search with the dawning of the sun.”The comrades understood the reason for her quick departure. She had been restless for eons and answers could not wait any longer. The fairy hugged the wolf and the hawk and bid them a fond farewell. She assured them that she would return after her anticipated adventures. While flying through the sunbeams, her thoughts drifted once again. She gazed lovingly at the rich green Isle that had always been her home. The memories were both sweet and sad. Nevertheless, Moon Dancing thanked the Sun God everyday as she celebrated her life.Undeniably, she would miss her kingdom of origin. Her stern Queen had taught plenty of good ethics, but the dominantprograming had disheartened Moon Dancing. Many of her early experiences had made it fruitless for the little fairy to express her true feelings.
The fractured fairy was overdue to discover and achieve her sense of worth. Dreams from her gentle King Fairy floated in her head. Right then and there, she promised him that she would seek changes to become a more complete being.Moon Dancing pulled herself away from the reminiscing to notice the rosy pink dawn. She watched the spectacular sunrise and thought of her own new beginnings. In her quest for truth and knowledge, she would seek out explanations on her choices of the past. She sensed adventures to come as she flew into the sparkling rays of the sun, East of Willow Mist Isle.
